Saturday, August 28, 2004

today is the 27 august 2004, only 127 days away from the year 2005
soon e year's gon end
and i will be in sec four
it seems like yesterday tt i took my psle (well.. not exactly yesterday.. it could be the day before yesterday or even the day bfore tt..)
now im fifteen years old.. changes are comin.. some haf already came.. i miss the days that i was still a little kid... i like starin at photos of myself when i was in kiddieland.. and im still not used to e way i look like now.. i wish i could look a bit better.. a bit taller.. blah blah blah...
e past two years were e shortest ones to me... time juz flew outta my window.. i felt i din haf enough time to do things i wanted... i feel like i wasted two years of my life... in e past two years all i did was study.. go to school.. go out.. play bball and things like that... but i feel my life kinda 'empty' i dunno wat im missing... two years haf gone past in a blink... i feel tt i haf gained nth livin thru those two years... i feel tt i juz been thru a time machine.. im like suddenly realised im in e year 2004... and one more year and i will be outta cheena high.. not really 'out' cos im in ip but my secondary school day will be over... grown-ups often toks abt how their teenage lives have made a great impression on their lives.. but i dun feel e same... im doin what everyone else does at this stage of their lives.. i haf what everyone has (except somethings.. which i can live without them).. but i dun feel like im 'living'... so what exactly is wrong wif me? or with this life of mine?
im not sure
but all i know is tt i need to solve this problem now and start 'living'. maybe my brain is wired differently.. maybe ive got some screws loose.. maybe i need to go for some counselling.. maybe im perfectly fine...

my brain is in a mess right now.. i dunno what to say and what i have already said.. its probably overheated or malfunctioning or because its on strike demanding a break... currently im staring at the blinking cursor thing... nothing else makes sense to me rite now...




donkeywentsurfing at 2:11 PM

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